I had a conversation with a friend regarding my relationship. I had been planning for the end. What did I mean by that? Well I developed this ultimatum in my head that if marriage or engagement didn’t happen at a particularly time–MY time, then I’d leave.
What was I walking away from? My own happiness. Can you imagine that? Seven years ago I broke up with an ex after an exhaustive two year relationship. I cried and prayed. Those types of prayers that would leave you in tears. I prayed to God to send someone that would treat me right. Someone that would make me a better person but most of all I prayed for God to send someone that would complement me.
I didn’t realize that my wish would be granted in a week’s time but it was. We started dating and most things have been uphill since. For some strange reason. I decided to walk away from it. Primarily because I wasn’t getting what I wanted (engagement) when I wanted.
A rude awakening came this week. It finally dawned on me how illogical my thought process was. Don’t ask God for a blessing only to throw it away. Life gives us blessings in many forms. One blessing may be a gateway to others. Know your blessings. Don’t block them.